I'm a real chair!

Yay! Brother finally relented and took out the box with his new Comfort 2000 chair, so i get to have his handmedown chair - which is like.. a REAL CHAIR, as opposed to my previous "cold pink stool".

Also.. if you can't beat 'em, join 'em! Instead of wailing and gnashing my teeth about the fact that G from horse-photo is all over the publications with his photos - i mailed him! I asked if he was interested in a second photographer for his site. He can't be in more than one place at a time, and shows are often spread out with many disciplines etc etc.. I didn't send him the link to my flickr site.. i'll wait and see if he is interested first.
He ain't gettin' _my_ photos for free. And I must say, my photos are sometimes better than his, even though he has this snazzy camera with telephoto lense etc.

Well, i hope he is interested. That would be a dream come true. It's what i wanted to do, but can't get off the ground. IF he doesn't rise to the challenge, i shall have to get my fat ass in gear and think on it a little harder. Buy the Snazzy Camera. Market myself, etc. (As the good Doc said)

So... holding thumbs now...

wk

PS: I'm doing rather well of ignoring the fact that it would have been 7 years today.
Sod him.

The slow swirl down the toilet...

Trying desperately to hang on to my leftover savings...
Paying off major debts will leave me with.. not too much.
Now the panic is starting to set in.
So i'm getting sick. And depressed. And angry. And i'm feeling a little lost.
Only good thing about the recent week is the weather... nice and cold.
And my boys.. Traffie and Mr Ex.
And my Mishka, Molly and Macky. And my cats.
So basically i'm a little ball of misery and the only things making me get out of bed in the morning are my animals. A good Molly-poke in the stomach and/or eye gets me up.

I'm flailing about in a panic on what my future holds. At one point, i thought i had things all set. Then the messup with my money. Now. Now i don't know.
I don't want to go back to computers. IT is all well and good, but i'm not made for it.
I don't want to be a waitress again. That would just crush what left of feeble spirit i have left.

I'm teetering here, i don't know where i am or what i'm doing.

*sigh*

Jen and Braveheart

Jen and Braveheart
Originally uploaded by genewolf.

A triple clear for J and Braveheart.
First round clear - won a rosette - second round competition was clear, as was their lovely jump-off! Off the winnings by 4 seconds! Well done to J and Braves!

Jen and Braveheart

Jen and Braveheart
Originally uploaded by genewolf.

I was actually mightily miffed with the judges today (L included). Even though Braves, and a lot of the horses, were round and soft and collected, the judges didn't even look their way. It was upsettingly obvious that the judges were just not going for horses today. Ponies won every class.

There are no words

Suw.
Thank you. Words are not enough.
So if you ever need anything that I can supply, you know where to find me.


wk

something to say

ok.. so big f**k up with my money.
there i was waiting for my HUMUNGOUS interest payout on my fixed deposit...
and blamm. it was..hardly enough to pay for my monthly petrol costs.
i was blown away.
*sigh*.
so.
now i'm wafting in Decision Limbo.
I have moved all my money out of that account and into an account that i can actually get to the money.
but NOW i have to begin the daunting task of deciding What Do I Do For Money?
I also have to decide whether to get that beautiful digicam or not. It would up my photo worthiness, but it would take a huge chunk out of my savings.

Congrats to my good buddy, S, who has signed a book deal. Incredible, S, well done!
If only i had something interesting to say. Something clever to write about.

Doctor Black said i have a good chance to make the Big Bucks.
But i just don't know what to do first.

If i could just..follow my passion. do what's good for me.
and make a little money on the way.

*sigh*

wk